So... wat the hell was all that about?

If you find me irritating, DON'T even bother to start a conversation with me...
If you're too busy to reply, at least have the courtesy to say so...
Just DON'T... act like a bloody DIVA and ignore the msgs that had been sent!
Grrr... how come pple can expect an almost instantaneous response from me and i respond...
but yet it doesn't happen the other way around...?
Am i such a DoorMat?

I've decided to go ahead with my Cambodia CIP... again... it clashes with my end of hols mtg @ work in June... is it worth just paying back that ONE day's pay so that i get to do more work and gain more experience in Cambodia? If there was a way, I probably would like to remain there and do more before coming back... just some months... I'm hoping I can get more contacts this time around and perhaps do something more long term... I cannot bear getting stuck here... seemed like a terribly bad start and doesn't seem to end... I'm so ready to quit the GAME... the GAME of Life...

Absolutely Infuriated...

I hate... pple who step on my tail...

And you know what...? You don't even realize you're doing it... all the better.
Pple who step on my tail get removed from my mobile phonebook and frm my other address books. U are faring no better. I've done this to several pple already... u'r not gonna be spared...

Why is "NEWS" called news? - by the time the news reaches us, it's likely not gonna be current anymore anyways... and there's nothing current about current affairs... is there? it's just history... and past affairs...
M... pls don't comment on this... no need to... i know ur stand... this is mine.

Some pple ain't gonna like this part...
I'll be heading for a mtg this Sat... tht mtg has to do with my June plans... May not be able to head to where some of u guys and I planned to head to... I'm so sorry...

Many a times, priorities shift... perhaps my priorities are shifting a little too much and too quickly... but well... y bother grazing in a field tht's barren...? Shouldn't we be heading for greener, fresher pastures? - in all sense of the word...

Thus, begins the period of Insomnia... again... whatever...

To everyone who reads this...
Happy Chinese New Year to you!

Now tht the usual greeting is done and the festivities are going to come to a quick close, here're some things...

I was SOOO looking forward to this long weekend break...

until I woke morning of 1st DAY of CNY in misery... throat dry and cough... nose stuck... God knows what else... Give me a holiday... and this happens?... gosh... it's no wonder i had problems sleeping the night before... I had problems trying to get to sleep the 1st night too...! - cough, can't breathe... constantly felt like someone was trying to strangle me... had to get up finally and take a panadol... (almost wanted to take 2... but did otherwise...)

I soooo need to curse and swear, 'cept it ain't much of a right mood to do so...

Odd how certain things, even a simple SMS can MAKE or DESTROY my day... wasn't feeling to glad about having to travel all the way back - without entertainment somemore, but wth... received a msg at the beginning of my long train ride that totally crushed my mood... soon after realised i was sitting opposite this couple who simply can't keep their child quiet... the little kid was wailing and wailing throughout my train journey...! yes... at the top of his/her voice... That was not the worse... this horribly smelling (after beer and smoke) person sat beside me... I almost gagged to death! - I can't even walk past a corridor knowing that a person was smoking there... let alone... with alcohol...! fed-up fed-up fed-up...

So much for a nice start... i think for once the horoscope's true... I'm in for deep shit the rest of this Gold PIG year... which is supposedly the snake's enemy... damn damn damn... wat a PIG...

Gotta start making choices again... should i head for a mtg... or should i go for a gathering?

One down... ONE more to GO...

It's been a tiring week...

Started off with School band prac on Tues...
Followed by my being there @ NAFA WE perf on wed... the E Watson work sounded pretty much like Melilo's After the Storm and Speech of Angels... is tht any surprise - since it's entitled "The Wind"?
continued with SWS prac on Thurs - I seriously have no idea what I was thinking when I agreed to help...
Fri was school prac, then NIE prac...
Completed one Concert yesterday... - The performance was pretty good, but LOUD. I just feel that I was a huge let-down... So sad... just couldn't get all the exposed parts right! Argh... Have i been too complacent? - tht's why I really don't think I should have been complimented for my playing any time in my life! I really let myself down...
One more concert later...

and then... perhaps, it'll be good riddance...?

I'll probably realise how tired I actually am... when everything finishes... tonight... (i know this sounds so negatively final... but i'll be glad that this week was over...!)

I think there is a great need for everyone to be really rational... It's IMPORTANT.
I know I 've blown my fuse many times... perhaps, it's time to just take a back seat, breathe... breathe deep... rationalise, then comment, spew, scold. A fast-paced society doesn't warrant shorter fuses... where is the humanity?

I should have known better...

that it was simply too good and too easy to be true...
you simply had no idea what you had been doing to me do you?

off i go... into the shell of non-existence... again...
This time it'll be deeper... maybe I'll never crawl out... ever...
perhaps it's better never to crawl out of there...