An IRON for Lucky Draw...?

Now, is this a msg from the above to tell me that i better start doing my chores at home... or what?

T-chers' day dinner on 30 Aug - tht's like the oddest timing...

Yea... first few tonight to step on stage to receive an iron for lucky draw... silly or wat?

Anyways, went, survived and am back...
thinking it might be the last time i'm gonna have dinner with these pple... haha...

Pupil bumped into me today : "Teacher, u leaving school end of the month ah?"
Now now now... where did all these pple get their information from?
They get information earlier than i know... I didn't even realize I was leaving so soon... haha...

It just flew...

The weekend just passed... like that *snap*...

Sat -
Had supper anyways - BL made a comment: "like reunion dinner like that"... huh??
Was invited for games session on Sun - of course go lah! - I can have my lunch thing with my choir every week...

Sun -
went boss' place for a games session - by the time I arrived home, I could hardly do a thing... so much so for planning for Eng lesson on Mon. I just couldn't get down to doing anything but read the book i borrowed.
New game - Citadels... apart from luck, knowing the cards and what's available can get one on the winning streak... boss' really old game -"Big Brother" - got taken out today (he bought it in US 4 yrs ago, i think)... The first round was *painfully long... cuz both CY and I kept landing on the 'non-yellow' squares... "'-_-' I digress...

Mon -
short jam session after school.
The usual classes still drive me up the wall... but have decided to adopt a nonchalant attitude - how long do i have to do this? I'm really sick and tired of this.
Got a ride home from TY - surprise surprise... it was one of those times i was waiting for a cab (rushing home for Nat's lesson), and something better than a cab came... a free ride home! Updated each other on stuff... ya TY's like the upstairs colleague... and I'm the downstairs one... hardly see each other around, let alone talk... We came to a conclusion - we're stuck here cuz there ain't no better alternative for the time-being...

Flamboyancy...

An interesting comment yesterday...
"Teacher, why you so happy today?"

Several implications...
1 ... i've always been really unhappy
2 ... i've always been exremely unhappy and was FINALLY happy yest
3 ... i wasn't actually happy and the flamboyance was just a cover-up for all my (*&^% )
4 ... i was really really happy

Option 4 doesn't really make sense... cuz there was simply nothing i was abso happy about.
The great worry is that I've a huge feeling it's Option 3... and I'm still v v lost.

Plenty things to do today. If i do end up not having supper with them, i know why... (i think)

It's OVER... finally!

For the lack of better Vocab, i'm finally done with all the afternoon commitments... Almost fell asleep several times, but thank goodness managed to keep awake with the coffee and tea... Back to a slightly more normal life... for a while.

Had dinner with Mi Soo and Cyn last night... at Vil'age, Heeren. Yea, Cyn and I treated her, cuz she'll be headin back to Korea early Monday morning... boy, are we gonna miss her cute facial expressions and her really great violin playing! (and she's headin to Juilliard in Dec for a violin masterclass - yes, Juilliard! Drool... Maybe I should just join her there!) We continued our little rendezvous at Jazz @ Southbridge... The Jap lady who plays the piano there is SOOO cool! Cuz there's work today, we couldn't hang out too long... no regrets though felt really lethargic the whole day.

Everything still seems very surreal.
It feels like I'm just an outsider.
observing Earth and it's goings-on.
Perhaps, I'm not really here.
Or, am I?

Something surreal
Something disturbin,
Something interesting...

The whole of today felt surreal... just floating through classes, giving instructions, teaching watever I had to teach... yep, tht's it. I didn't feel much, didn't look much, didn't say too much, either... couldn't feel - not much emotions left...

Borrowed a couple of books... (browsed through the shelves while waitin for desi's arrival at WM) 1 looked particularly interesting. but after further scrutiny by desi, she drew the conclusion that it was a disturbin book... well, I suppose it may work, disturbin book for the disturbed soul... yi3 du2 gong1 du2... Anyays, thx for the dinner co. desi!

While getting off the 77 at my place, someone tried to get my attention... nobody familiar - I realised, cuz i turned around and looked into the bus after i alighted. tht person who tried to get my attention held up a book against the window... OMG! there were 2 of us in tht bus holding on to the exact same book title!

I am so amused... couldn't forget that smile plastered on the face... no, such decent looking pple shouldn't be reading such things!

Floating...

All thanks to my inability of getting to sleep last night - ya, stayed up but not the entire duration was spent in front od PC lah... - got a huge nagging from dad early in the morning - anything from him and mum being 'bad' parents and all...

I've to admit I'm v lazy where doing chores are concerned: I never do them, unless I really have to - like when they were in China and my sis and I were left alone. Sorry, will start doing chores...

Insomnia kicks in...

I'm hoping now that this insomnia is caused by the 2 glasses of iced-tea i had over dinner with Ras and SW @ Holland Vill just now...

If it IS otherwise, then I'm definitely in DEEP trouble... I'll probably lose sleep for the coming week or even month or so.

My mother already commented that my eye bags were so very visible (even under dim lighting)!

All I can do now is to play some games and WISH myself to sleep.

I thought I could spend my free periods in school practicing marimba... but considering i'm still up at this time, I doubt I'd have the energy to do so. I'd probably spend my free periods lying on my table so that I might hopefully willingly be awake for the afternoon's commitments...

Too much has been happening...

For quite a long while, it felt that nothing was happening...
everything was boring...
school sucked and everything just falls into place... - not necy always in the right place though.

in the midst of all these, plenty happenings... i just dun wanna acknowledge the fact that so MUCH is happening,
yet, time seems to have come to a standstill... since... the beginning of the term...

Still curious about several things... still getting affected... and still bumming about school...
nope, not much enthusiasm left.

though this is not widely read... still dun feel comfortable putting some things here...
on to another blog!
not abandoning this of course...

My perc. scores have finally arrived...

got a call from sweet classics...
and i'll be collecting my scores on Sat... can't wait...
Time to lock meself up in the band room to prac prac prac...!

Sticking is a worry... dunno if can make it or not... but I'll try...

It took 10 years to come a full circle...

I'm thinking... I'm not thinking... watever...

Funny how sometimes things just go a full circle after sometime... days, months, years...?
Feelings, situations, whatever...

my band has to give up the rehearsal room... again!?! and fight for the music room again!?!

It was PRIME... great move (from the original technical block that HAD a huge music room and 2 rooms attached - front and back - 1 for the band, the other for CO... everyone was happy then...)
to the temporary block.
then after PRIME, we shifted to the 4th floor of the technical block...
then they decided that the Rifle Range ought to be utilised and the mirrors in the music room should be utilised by the Dancers...
we moved down... down to the 1st floor - Rifle Range... now, they wanna do another upgrade... (got money from the HQ... reno again!) and they kick us out of there...
and tell us to move to the Art room... and fight for the use of music room during the critical period... (and the art room is still used and just been informed that it can't be released till further notice...) which basically means We're HOMELESS!

i need to move ALL my stuff like 5 times in a short span of 5 1/2 years!

the hall would have been a good place...
BUT! - we'll have to fight with exams that are going on and the v-ball team - which is like 100 times more important than us anyways...

Situation during the time we were in the music room - CO and Band had to share usage of Music room.
Situation to be (next year) - CO, Dance and Band gotta share the music room for rehearsal...
(For the lack of better words...) - Wat the fuck?

upgrading is good? Utter nonsense... absolutely rubbish... the situation has utterly deteriorated...
happiness to unhappiness... and even more unhappiness...

Any suggestions on drastic measures that can be taken is welcomed... I'm sick and tired of this situation...
I'm at my WIT's end!

I think... therefore I...

Just got back from a supper thing after SWSYW Concert conducted by our dear friend... Enjoyed it, and would probably love to play in one similar to this... someday... Interesting theme, highly entertaining and decent sounds from the band!

The more I think about it, the more i feel this ain't the right profession for me... I need to do something... else.

I was thinking of trying for TWA in Cambodia/Vietnam... no access yet, but wat if i really apply and get accepted? - would it mean i won't get enough band practice time? - would it mean I can't head to NZ end of the year...? I guess I'll just apply and see what happens from there...

So much to do - get scores, do up photos... practice for LRSM, prac for gr 8 perc... when the score comes... stuff... but so little time to do them all... and why am i doing all these in the first place?

LOST

Now I'm REALLY convinced...

The more technologically advanced a society is, the less the society thinks!
And I'm not even referring to the ability to add and subtract, multiply and subtract mentally...!
No no... I'm referring to values here... and the ability to even rationalize...

I quote "My rights as a student of (enter class)... I want to be able to sleep in class - in order to do that I must score well in my exams..."

Does this make any sense to any of you? I was like... !?!?
Sheesh... how well kids nowadays think. It doesn't help that this came from the "creme de la creme" of the cohort!

Thank God for the gaming invite last Sat (managed to restore some sanity) or I would have had an emergency admission into IMH!