Depression is a state of mind... mine...? watever...

I actually headed to JE library today... to get food for the brain... What did i get? - POL POT, anatomy of a nightmare. Yes, sadistic? oh well, heard this title over 'fresh' (recommended readings on 93.8) this morning. Actually took my PDA out to write the title down so that I wouldn't forget it!

Indeed, I do think I'm a little mad.

Which is worse: being depressed and knowing it but not wanting to do anything about it, OR being depressed and not knowing I am depressed?

To top off the weird things going on... spent 2 nights - last night and the night before trying to memorise 2 pages of Partita 2. If you know me well enough, you'll probably know that I'm not the memorise score type - in fact, I hate such things! Although i do agree that a well memorised and performed piece CAN enhance a performance.

Kinda gave up yet again on the Bandies in sch... walked in on them... playing each other's instruments. Yes, i know a number of u out there are going to tell me it's no big deal and every mothers' child does it... wat the hell... BUT! This just shows how 'responsible' they are when there is no adult 'hounding' them... damn. next batch of leaders some more. Well, it'll just serve them right when the juniors don't respect them... then it will again come to a point where the T-I-C has to come in and make sure everyone's disciplined... I dun thing i very much like this job... am i beginning to hate it? I've been so temperamental over every thing the kids do... I think there's something seriously wrong with me... something seriously WRONG...