Back to reality...

So... 1st week of school... just passed me by... so many things going on... but didn't feel like i did much... no idea why...

Pupils asked me out for dinner... on my b'day... really really sweet of them to do so... they even got me a cake... yes... I'm so touched... but the biting reality is... at this age of mine... my pupils are celebrating my b'day for me...?? how SAD a case am I... oh man...

ok... a friend who supposedly knows my b'day didn't even msg and wish me... painful part is... this person did rem and wish this other person on her b'day sometime back... it takes simple things like tht to break a friendship... dun tell me u'r busy... so darn busy u can't even pick up the phone and send a simple msg... now i know i'm not even worth 2 mins or even 1 min of ur time...

Don't like the way some things are carried out... but shall not say more here... too tired... no more energy left to deal with emotion of any sort...

Things to do... before my next b'day (hopefully)
1) practice the piano... so hard that hopefully I'll get my LRSM Cert by the end of the year or 2007...
2) affect / touch more pple's lives... in the good way of course...
3) go to Cambodia again... to see my 'brothers' and 'sisters'
4) find someone... to love and to be loved by... and stay in love
5) Get my Band recognised... in school
6) Attain a higher level of technical skills on my Flute, Clarinet, Horn and Violin...
7) Bring my Band overseas...
8) Trust God... more...
9) Devote more time to prayer
10) Leave things behind... forget the people I hope to forget... and finally move on... (I'm talking about unhappy stuff... tht happened and are still happening)

So many things to do... and only ONE year... am I getting too strict and impatient with myself? Dang... I don't care... or rather... just as well i'm like that... at least I'll have things to do every other night and weekend, without having to spend too much time sitting and waiting and wondering... if u'r calling... if we're meeting

Sometimes I just hate my life...