Fun, fun, fun... maybe not

It was an entire day of school... boring thing to do... whatever the case was kinda stuck there for like 8 hrs or so? anyways, thnx to mdm Ong, managed to catch a lift to the train station instead of waiting for ages at the bus-stop for the bus to appear... practically 'chionged' to the station and to CY's place... for the perc and FOP gathering... there were fewer than the intended number, but it was a nice and cozy gathering, easy to have conversations and all just acros the table... tables... the last to arrive was ASH... that was when half the party had already left... anyways, we just talked and all... crapped... this last 5 hrs of the day made my Fri worthwhile... so there was like a humongous amount of food... we all ate like ... shall not say the word here... was kinda prepared to get home on my own frm CY's place after I rejected leaving earlier with some people... BUT... this ex-classmate of mine is soooo nice... he offered to send DH, then ASH and myself home... and to do that he had to drive frm central... to east... to my place in the west... CY thx again for lending me all ur 'prized' CDs and for sending me home... really appreciated... if i can find the EL translation of tht book, sure lend u first... (i doubt got anybody else want to borrow it though...)

Woke up just in time for piano lesson today... then rushed to get changed and all for Lizzie's engagement mass... CSA gang really made up of sooo many married couples and now even children... let's put it this way, and pardon me for saying the truth here... i'm beginning to feel excluded... it's just a personal thing... most prob... and the rest of them probably dun feel that way about me... met up with some dance min pple at the engagement mass... almost forgot all about them already... amongst those i met, one was this kinda close friend some time back... now gotten married and with child... and i didn't even know he got married... argh... I hate weddings... no it's no good to say this... no... i don't mean to say i hate the process... it's just the age everyone's getting married and having children and... hey... i have no intention of saying this but this kinda thing does cause some kin of depression... it's not as if i dun like my life now... I'm really happy for all these couples out there... many of them both my friends... but... I can't help it but to say that I dread sitting through a wedding reception/dinner... call it what you want... i really DREAD it...! Had to walk off the depression... there again... i'm beginning to get so used to those times I'm on my own, walking back home frm the main road and all... that doesn't mean I don't want or don't need the company, I just haven't got the company... and omg... how sad a case am I? - and to be blogging this as well?

Band prac was pretty usual... CY's 2 pupils really came for prac... they probably got all freaked out by the pieces and the orientation... and I thought orientation was to 'suan' newbies...?? since when did the person off the podium get 'suanned' too?? so much lemon thrown around this evening...and half of them to me... eeeeww... spare me lah... first time stand in front do secretary job... some more standing in front of group of pple... always reminds me of school... 'occupational hazard'... cuz i actually said 'report for band at 4...' only to realize that... oops... this is not school... haha... may be laughing now... tht's external... internally... i think I'm getting more and more depressed each day... I wonder when this will end...