A Chapter ends...
To those who may have been faithfully looking into this page... I have not died... thanks for ur concern...
I guess I really needed some time to 'cool-off'... and to look at things from different perspectives... pick some pieces up, sweep the rest away... so tht I dun get cut... AGAIN... yes... some of the pieces are very jagged and sharp...
Thx Rui for talking to me the other night... it helped...
Back into LRSM mode... but dang! - cut my index finger on a plastic edge while making Tiramisu yesterday...! tht's y today play different type of 'keyboard' ahha... ok LAME... feels good to be back on track... BUT... it's against my conscience tht every time music and piano are the things i 'fall back' on... to get the pieces together... y can't they just be ard... even if i dun have to pick pieces up...? I feel real BAD...
Anyway, headed for my first piano lesson last thurs... OUch wat a disaster... lost my touch... Bach sounded like...? my teacher's just a tad too polite to insult me... but i knoe it was really quite bad...
Got a surprise call frm a certain party... yes, almost nvr get this type of call... and while i was actually in the midst of sending a msg... (one of those really rare times I actually had the phone in my hand in school) anyways it was to inform me that he'd informed a certain party about me and aske me to call this party back with regards to piano lessons...! haha... more lobang... and this is lobang that's worth it... and he like explained it really clearly to me... so tht was about 20 minutes on the phone...? gosh... but it was good info... and well worth the time though...
last 2 weeks passed... in a breeze... somewhat... though i dun wan each year to pass too quickly, I wish the days would... wat an oxy-moronic thought... I'm such a living contradiction... But I think my b'day resolutions still stand... am praying they do happen...
* I felt like I've lost a Soul-mate,
yet, u've confirmed tht u've never been one
Great pain pierced through my soul...
I wanted to stop living and leave...
It's not so much a loss anymore...
but a reality checkpoint it was
the truth be told
shall I never find another
You'd never be forgotten nor be a regret
Prob the only regret is I had not known sooner
Made it last too long...
To those who may have been faithfully looking into this page... I have not died... thanks for ur concern...
I guess I really needed some time to 'cool-off'... and to look at things from different perspectives... pick some pieces up, sweep the rest away... so tht I dun get cut... AGAIN... yes... some of the pieces are very jagged and sharp...
Thx Rui for talking to me the other night... it helped...
Back into LRSM mode... but dang! - cut my index finger on a plastic edge while making Tiramisu yesterday...! tht's y today play different type of 'keyboard' ahha... ok LAME... feels good to be back on track... BUT... it's against my conscience tht every time music and piano are the things i 'fall back' on... to get the pieces together... y can't they just be ard... even if i dun have to pick pieces up...? I feel real BAD...
Anyway, headed for my first piano lesson last thurs... OUch wat a disaster... lost my touch... Bach sounded like...? my teacher's just a tad too polite to insult me... but i knoe it was really quite bad...
Got a surprise call frm a certain party... yes, almost nvr get this type of call... and while i was actually in the midst of sending a msg... (one of those really rare times I actually had the phone in my hand in school) anyways it was to inform me that he'd informed a certain party about me and aske me to call this party back with regards to piano lessons...! haha... more lobang... and this is lobang that's worth it... and he like explained it really clearly to me... so tht was about 20 minutes on the phone...? gosh... but it was good info... and well worth the time though...
last 2 weeks passed... in a breeze... somewhat... though i dun wan each year to pass too quickly, I wish the days would... wat an oxy-moronic thought... I'm such a living contradiction... But I think my b'day resolutions still stand... am praying they do happen...
* I felt like I've lost a Soul-mate,
yet, u've confirmed tht u've never been one
Great pain pierced through my soul...
I wanted to stop living and leave...
It's not so much a loss anymore...
but a reality checkpoint it was
the truth be told
shall I never find another
You'd never be forgotten nor be a regret
Prob the only regret is I had not known sooner
Made it last too long...
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