Now, what was that ALL about...?

Do you ever feel...
there are times you've really gotten a 'hold' of ur life?
then after you 'thought' you've grasped a hold of ur life... something comes along and sweeps you into the dumps again?
then a realization kicks in...
what is reality...? the former... or the latter?
Do you really want the former?
Was the former more of a distraction, or is the latter a distraction...?