I'm really tired... (a depressing blog from a terribly depressed person...Entry best ignored if one is already depressed.)

Does anybody care...? i don't think so...
I dunno...
- if i'm gonna wake up tmr morning...
- if i'm ever gonna have a normal life ever...
- if i'm ever gonna have a real relationship... ever...
- if i can be any less emotional (it's getting worse and worse by the year...)
- if i'm really truly happier now than i was...
- if i'm really cut out for all these that i'm doing right now...
- if my life on Earth is well-spent...
- if i'm really truly that musically inclined... (if i'm just forcing it, i should just stop it all now)
- if i have any true friends around at all...
- if i'm ever gonna be able to find a soul-mate...
- if i'm doing wat i'm really meant to do...
- if i'm doing things right...
- if i'm too emotional...
- if i'm SUCH A FAKE tht i don't realise or refuse that things are going wrong, that things can't happen and things that are just THERE because they are just there...
- if i just need to cry out loud on ur shoulders and stop 3 days after...
- if i just need a hug from someone who cares...
- if i'll be able to find another confidante... (i think i just lost the only one i had)

I've just lost all energy to do things that i've started out so fervently and with such enthusiasm earlier this year. Ya... it's still the beginning of the year... only 1 March... and i'm in such a state...