Just thoughts on a no-school day...
It's been quite a number of days since i blogged...
Several things in and out, busy with rehearsals (still), teaching and all...
A lot of things made me think twice... thrice... more than that... about my direction in life.
Do I really want to remain in this system all my life? Do I really wanna leave, can I take it seeing things not done my way...? Do I have the guts, the heart to leave? Do I really want a less-structured job? Can I take the pay-cut...? (there seems to be something wrong with the system... pple are getting less and less teachable as the years go by... or am i just being too much of a disciplinarian...?)
Was talking to a colleague today and well... had a job proposal thing going on... kinda like a "partnership" kinda thing... interesting way to look at it... but have to see how much I can ignore external factors... besides, i'm already leaving tht part of my job in April... do i want to get myself mixed up in tht again?
And they always say... things happen for a reason... well, I saw it today... the reason, i mean.
Supposed to teach piano tonight, but was cancelled yest, cuz students had to attend to something... so cuz of tht, i'm gonna be able to make it to a little gathering later... Friend came back frm Oz for some days, so we're just havin a simple dinner.
This morning, i missed the 174 by like 30 metres? ended up taking 61 to BB interchange to take MRT to Boon Lay... (if i had waited i would almost definitely have been late to the masterclass) So on impulse, I got on 61, the 1st bus tht headed for BB... (argh... it crawled... made me gan jiong...) anyways, bumped into a friend @ the train platform... I almost NVR take train... and the day I didn't have to head to school EARLY in the morning, and am forced to take the train... I bump into a friend... I wouldn't really classify it as a coincidence... cuz at least i managed to iron out an issue with regards to the trip and mtgs in tht short 5 mins...
hmm... i'm beginning to believe in fate more and more... not that I was ever a non-believer or whatever... just that, we all probably have a main path that has been sculpted for us, how we go through it and wat we do with it when we're at these points are wat makes our lives... Some things, if they're not meant to be, they're not meant to be... thus, there's always a reason for things to happen...
Perhaps, the reason why i'm feeling so tired out (although it may seem like i'm doing much much less than many pple) is becuz of something else that i'm supposed to head towards...? Perhaps this is the push...
It's been quite a number of days since i blogged...
Several things in and out, busy with rehearsals (still), teaching and all...
A lot of things made me think twice... thrice... more than that... about my direction in life.
Do I really want to remain in this system all my life? Do I really wanna leave, can I take it seeing things not done my way...? Do I have the guts, the heart to leave? Do I really want a less-structured job? Can I take the pay-cut...? (there seems to be something wrong with the system... pple are getting less and less teachable as the years go by... or am i just being too much of a disciplinarian...?)
Was talking to a colleague today and well... had a job proposal thing going on... kinda like a "partnership" kinda thing... interesting way to look at it... but have to see how much I can ignore external factors... besides, i'm already leaving tht part of my job in April... do i want to get myself mixed up in tht again?
And they always say... things happen for a reason... well, I saw it today... the reason, i mean.
Supposed to teach piano tonight, but was cancelled yest, cuz students had to attend to something... so cuz of tht, i'm gonna be able to make it to a little gathering later... Friend came back frm Oz for some days, so we're just havin a simple dinner.
This morning, i missed the 174 by like 30 metres? ended up taking 61 to BB interchange to take MRT to Boon Lay... (if i had waited i would almost definitely have been late to the masterclass) So on impulse, I got on 61, the 1st bus tht headed for BB... (argh... it crawled... made me gan jiong...) anyways, bumped into a friend @ the train platform... I almost NVR take train... and the day I didn't have to head to school EARLY in the morning, and am forced to take the train... I bump into a friend... I wouldn't really classify it as a coincidence... cuz at least i managed to iron out an issue with regards to the trip and mtgs in tht short 5 mins...
hmm... i'm beginning to believe in fate more and more... not that I was ever a non-believer or whatever... just that, we all probably have a main path that has been sculpted for us, how we go through it and wat we do with it when we're at these points are wat makes our lives... Some things, if they're not meant to be, they're not meant to be... thus, there's always a reason for things to happen...
Perhaps, the reason why i'm feeling so tired out (although it may seem like i'm doing much much less than many pple) is becuz of something else that i'm supposed to head towards...? Perhaps this is the push...
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